Go and Set a Watchman

It feels like the height of melodrama

To claim that the place I find myself 

Is anywhere adjacent to "the depths," 

And it wouldn't exactly be true to say

I've spent much time crying out to you. 

"In a slump I sit around waiting for someone else to do something"

Would be a more accurate description. 


I believe that you've forgiven me.

I believe that you love me and want my best.

But Bill, I believe this is killing me. 

My soul has fallen to its metaphorical knees

And I'm struggling to find the strength to stand back up

To keep trudging, mile after mile, 

Surrounded by so much nonsense baptized in self-righteous spite. 


I've been waiting for the morning like a watchman. 

I've abandoned personal responsibility for mindless oblivion. 

I shuffle along, day by day, 

Like a mindless troglodyte heedless of his own actions. 

My soul will wait for the Lord, and I trust in you, 

But I can't stand still and sink into the depths while I wait. 

If redemption is what I need, come find me to deliver. 

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