Why Can't You Just Be Happy?

Sure. You've got problems. Who the hell doesn't?
Why can't you just be happy?
Big deal. You've been through trauma. Who the hell hasn't?
Why can't you just be happy?
Okay. Fine. You've gained a lot of weight.
Why can't you just be happy?
Yes, I can see that your hair is falling out.
Why can't you just be happy?
You're tired. You're stressed. You feel burnt out. I get it.
Why can't you just be happy?
Your clothes don't fit. You're uncomfortable in your own skin.
Why can't you just be happy?
Your ankle's hurt for half a year and you're completely out of shape.
Why can't you just be happy?
You're worried about diabetes but you also can't stop eating.
Why can't you just be happy?
Your hands get numb and you worry about what that means.
Why can't you just be happy?
You can't sleep without a machine or you might suffocate.
Why can't you just be happy?
All your grandparents are gone and you wonder how many years your parents have left.
Why can't you just be happy?
You're fighting your biochemistry every step of the way and are worried you've cursed your children to the same fate and you feel like a failure because you can't keep going at the same pace you've being going for years even though your motor died a few blocks back and you're pushing uphill and you feel like a burden to your wife and you aren't doing your job to a standard that's no longer internal but also external and trying to be engaged in the world around you makes you want to scream.
Why can't you just be happy?

Your needs are met and you have a new car.
Why can't you just be happy?
You have a wife who loves you and kids who adore you.
Why can't you just be happy?
You've come through so much and you're still here.
Why can't you just be happy?
You have a job where you get to touch people's lives and help them.
Why can't you just be happy?
You are capable of changing and improving whatever you need to.
Why can't you just be happy?
You are making positive changes in your ministerial and personal life.
Why can't you just be happy?
Your family needs the best version of you.
Why can't you just be happy?
All your struggles are temporary and things can get better.
Why can't you just be happy?
The world is a better place with you in it and your kids love to play with you and learn from you and trust you with their lives and you are married to a wonderful and supportive partner and every day is full of new opportunities and incredible life to be lived.
Why can't you just be happy?

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